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First I wanna say I am a very motivated individual. With my 1st pregnancy I fell very sick and had severe nausea/vomiting during my pregnancy. At that time I was very miserable. Right when the nausea went away I went straight into a job until near my due date. When my son was 6 months I went to nursing school & graduated. I finally got my first nursing job than 6 months later here I am pregnant again. I didn’t want to be pregnant due to the fact that it holds me back due to how sick I get and my motivation is never the same during pregnancy and even right after. It’s a lot physically and emotionally for me. Most women and men don’t understand the pain I go through because the type of severity of sickness I get isn’t very common. My mom had HG and I’m pretty sure I got it from her. That being said everyone told me every pregnancy was different and so i wanted to try for my husband and I and somewhat regret that decision. Because, I’m back at square one miserably I’ll. I took a LOA from work which is coming to a end next week. I have been bed-ridden the whole first trimester that mentally I don’t feel prepared to go back. I am angry most days because I see some pregnant women being full of energy or atleast somewhat capable of working. When I’m not pregnant I love working. I’m a very out going person and I think that’s why it’s affecting me mentally. My job is about an hour to 90 mins. Drive. I have to wake up at 5 am to make it and it feels so impossible. My husband wake up to work from home and has nothing physically holding him back and it makes me sad that i don’t feel the same that I did when I wasn’t pregnant. Everything was so much easier and now I feel like I don’t have full control over my body anymore. I try to make myself feel better by eating healthy,( even though I can’t keep much food down). I drink ginger tea. I took Zofran which stopped working as well. I guess my point is being pregnant is setting me back so much & I feel defeated. I finally have a job that I liked “before pregnancy” and now I’m dreading and hating the thought of it. Imagine going from bed-ridden miserably sick then going straight back to work. I’d rather work 2 full time jobs than deal with the physical and mental toll of pregnancy. Anyone else relate?