Here is the update
He fell of his bike last friday at around 3pm....
I was calling him for hours to see where he wanted to come and have chinese at my moms and just to check if he and the cats were alright.
finally at 7pmish he answers 'would love to but i have been in a accident' i panic..i phone and text till finally he calls and says he has already been to the hospital!!!
The woman who he talked about our relationship and how i moan and stuff picked him up and was dropping him home!!! I was very angry and very upset.
When he got home he phoned the ambulence and went back into hospital,because is leg was killing him.So skip forward.
He needs to go to the hospital again and the next night,The same woman collects him from the hospital (again) because she lives near by
They get chips and come back to the house as they have not eaten...HERE IS WERE IT GETS INTERESTING
He comes through the door and then she comes in..i say hello and how are you...and i thank her for collecting him and bringing him home (as i can't drive)
she doesn't look me in the face at all and walks past me! I walk in and ask her if she would like me to dish out the chips...she looks at him and asks him if he wants her to do it! Completely blanking me...so i dish it out,we eat and she leaves.I don't say goodbye as im angry and what is the point right!!!
Next day i bring it up.. he say he never saw any of that!
I mean the hole time it was him and her having a convo! He talks to me but she just sits and thinks im not there...he tells me is because of the way 'I' was off with her! I was never off with her..the women could not look me in the face! because of what he had told her about me,he told her i was forever moaning and that i was not having the baby for the right reasons,how he wished he never went through with the pregnancy n blah...Now how could i ever see myself with someone who paints me in a horrible way
a relationship is between two people and two people only!
He says he had no one to talk to and he was stressed...
Then he tells me,She and her partner have a 10 year old (she was 23 now 33) they have been trying for another baby for year and they cannot get pregnant.So my mom tells me its jelousy...but i can't help if m pregnant can i! He tells me she even joked about where she could get sperm of the internet :/
He asks her is she has a problem with me,,she ignores him ( I dont believe it at all)
I think he is hiding what she has really said about me
Now i was starting to fall in love with him again,we got really close after his accident last week.I was willing to leave the past i the past,but after him saying it because of how i was acting with her,made me realise he would never take my side.I don't trust him or understand him at all.The old man locks his phone/computer.Because i read what he had told her in the email,he made me a separate account on his laptop for me.There is no trust at all.
I thought it would be okay.Now im 36 weeks pregnant lookng after him and his three cats.Im so tired i have to cook,clean everything.He is having his windows done, and carry the shopping we ordered off the internet
My back hurts,my legs are going to give way,my hands ache
i sit and cry because i can't do it,but i have to
im the only one that can.Im so lonley it hurts
will i ever find happiness in life.I feel even though im only 21,my life will only get worse
I have never really known love and i can honestly say i don't think i ever will.I don't even have friends to talk to.i haven't left the house in 10 days now,i just sit and watch tv with him,cook,clean wash up..that is ow my life,im really hoping when he takes his cats of Tuesday he can drive and try and get about more as i want to go home
i need to not be surrounded by furr and dirt and flys.I just want my own bed and no to be walked over by cats all the time.
I think i will ask for ant-depressents the next time i visit my midwife i will ask about it.Can you take them while your pregnant? I need something to keep me stable as i don't think can do this anymore
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