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Just doing this quick as i am sitting very uncomfortable, feels like i am sitting on pins!
Woke up at 3.00am witch a bad period pain, went on the ball and coped until around 7ish then i wanted to go to hospital. Was on gas and air, it never took the pain away but i was away...away with the fairies! I was in agony and it was shooting round my back. I wanted something stronger so asked for morphine but needed checked before they could give me it... she checked and she said i was only 2.5cm!!! I completely broke down at this point i was devastated!!! I was in so much pain and to be only 2.5cm i felt a failure!
Midwife was an absolute bitch with me basically calling me fat! OH went to the machine to get me a mars bar and she said to him next time she wants a mars bar get her an apple... and she said she thinks i should be cutting down on them!!! I was so off my head i didn't care. They give me morphine... the needle was big but never felt a thing!
This is when it goes blurry.. i never knew what was real and what was a dream.
My contractions were coming basically one after the other and i wasn't getting a break.
I can remember another midwife coming in and saying something about the strength of them.
Also can remember the bitch midwife saying "i think you have a low pain theshold" stupid bitch! It was serious agony though... i wasnt exaggerating! Within 1 hour 25 mins i went from 2.5cm to 9cm. When she told me i was 9cm my eyes popped out of my head!
I had been screaming for an Epidural for ages by now and they kept saying she was gonna get me one and then the person who does it had an emergency. I heard her wisper to my mam something about not any time for one... to that i shouted " i heard that!!!"
Then i felt like i needed a poo! But they said i couldnt push yet...so i never as i was terrified. All i can remember doing is shouting "i need a shit, let me have a shit, let me go to the toilet now!" lol!!! I wasn't allowed to be mobile either as i had morphine so they wouldnt let me walk about i had to stay on the bed which made everything worse...staying in one place in agony when all you want to do is move about.
When it came to pushing i kept drifting in and out.
By this time i was screaming when pushing. (feel so embarrassed for it)
OH said it took me about 20 mins or a little bit longer to push her out. It really felt like pushing a big poo out but with alot of stinging.. midwife told me off for shouting and "wasting my energy" but it felt so good and kind of took some pain away from screaming!
Oh my waters went when i was ready to push i think... not quite sure. Felt a big relief when it happened. I screaming for them to get the baby out and begged for them to use forceps lol which i said was my worst nightmare...they never used them though.
She was then born
pooed on her way out but all was fine.
Got an injection for the placenta to come out... never hurt.
Dunno how many stitches but i never teared much.
She was placed on me after OH cut the cord. Had to keep her on me a while as she was struggling to keep warm. Shes lovely!
I must say though... i don't know if i could do it again. May sound bad but i really couldnt!
I am struggling to forget about the birth which i am going to mention to my midwife. I feel really crap about the way i was treated. Even though after the midwife kissed me... but thats not the point it was the way she treated me before.
I also feel like i made a complete idiot out of myself by screaming even though my mam said i wasn't that bad with the contractions just when i was pushing i screamed.. but she said alot of people do and she could hear other people screaming aswell. Still can't get over the fact people saw me in that much pain, i don't know why.
Well i hope noone read this who is terriefied themselves. Everyones labour is different and people cope in different ways i think it was bad for me because i dilated so quick and never got a break.
Thanks pinky for the back up on my facebook...you know what i mean.
Hoping i start feeling like myself soon. xxx
Midwife been, made me feel better and said i'd done great getting fully dilated in 1 hour 25 mins! Feel kind of better when she said that but have asked to talk to someone about the birth.
Will upload a pic very soon just gonna find my bluetooth!
Woke up at 3.00am witch a bad period pain, went on the ball and coped until around 7ish then i wanted to go to hospital. Was on gas and air, it never took the pain away but i was away...away with the fairies! I was in agony and it was shooting round my back. I wanted something stronger so asked for morphine but needed checked before they could give me it... she checked and she said i was only 2.5cm!!! I completely broke down at this point i was devastated!!! I was in so much pain and to be only 2.5cm i felt a failure!
Midwife was an absolute bitch with me basically calling me fat! OH went to the machine to get me a mars bar and she said to him next time she wants a mars bar get her an apple... and she said she thinks i should be cutting down on them!!! I was so off my head i didn't care. They give me morphine... the needle was big but never felt a thing!
This is when it goes blurry.. i never knew what was real and what was a dream.
My contractions were coming basically one after the other and i wasn't getting a break.
I can remember another midwife coming in and saying something about the strength of them.
Also can remember the bitch midwife saying "i think you have a low pain theshold" stupid bitch! It was serious agony though... i wasnt exaggerating! Within 1 hour 25 mins i went from 2.5cm to 9cm. When she told me i was 9cm my eyes popped out of my head!
I had been screaming for an Epidural for ages by now and they kept saying she was gonna get me one and then the person who does it had an emergency. I heard her wisper to my mam something about not any time for one... to that i shouted " i heard that!!!"
Then i felt like i needed a poo! But they said i couldnt push yet...so i never as i was terrified. All i can remember doing is shouting "i need a shit, let me have a shit, let me go to the toilet now!" lol!!! I wasn't allowed to be mobile either as i had morphine so they wouldnt let me walk about i had to stay on the bed which made everything worse...staying in one place in agony when all you want to do is move about.
When it came to pushing i kept drifting in and out.
By this time i was screaming when pushing. (feel so embarrassed for it)
OH said it took me about 20 mins or a little bit longer to push her out. It really felt like pushing a big poo out but with alot of stinging.. midwife told me off for shouting and "wasting my energy" but it felt so good and kind of took some pain away from screaming!
Oh my waters went when i was ready to push i think... not quite sure. Felt a big relief when it happened. I screaming for them to get the baby out and begged for them to use forceps lol which i said was my worst nightmare...they never used them though.
She was then born
pooed on her way out but all was fine. Got an injection for the placenta to come out... never hurt.
Dunno how many stitches but i never teared much.
She was placed on me after OH cut the cord. Had to keep her on me a while as she was struggling to keep warm. Shes lovely!
I must say though... i don't know if i could do it again. May sound bad but i really couldnt!
I am struggling to forget about the birth which i am going to mention to my midwife. I feel really crap about the way i was treated. Even though after the midwife kissed me... but thats not the point it was the way she treated me before.
I also feel like i made a complete idiot out of myself by screaming even though my mam said i wasn't that bad with the contractions just when i was pushing i screamed.. but she said alot of people do and she could hear other people screaming aswell. Still can't get over the fact people saw me in that much pain, i don't know why.
Well i hope noone read this who is terriefied themselves. Everyones labour is different and people cope in different ways i think it was bad for me because i dilated so quick and never got a break.
Thanks pinky for the back up on my facebook...you know what i mean.
Hoping i start feeling like myself soon. xxx
Midwife been, made me feel better and said i'd done great getting fully dilated in 1 hour 25 mins! Feel kind of better when she said that but have asked to talk to someone about the birth.
Will upload a pic very soon just gonna find my bluetooth!
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